The human being is a very irrational animal that has but a small amount of rationalism, sensitivity and intuition. His development takes too long and he is constantly impeded by his wild nature. If you think you have made a big mistake and now you want to die, remember that the horrible truth about humans is that they are irrational and cruel animals. They make too many mistakes because they are stupid, prone to violence, and so absurd that they have self-destructive tendencies from birth. There is a scientific explanation for the mystery of Christian baptism that wipes out the original sin we are born with: the child is a future sinner without a doubt, because humans are crazy and tend to get lost in despair. The human conscience hasn't evolved sufficiently as yet. The biggest part of the human brain is the part that belonged to a wild caveman. That caveman still lives inside human beings. The human being is no more than an animal, only somewhat more developed than a monkey. Therefore, if you made a very big mistake, you have to forgive yourself and expect other human beings to forgive you too, because we are all irrational and cruel animals that make many mistakes, without understanding what we are doing. Others may not forgive you, exactly because they are cruel. However you have to show them that the right attitude towards you is forgiveness. Show them that they must accept your apologies, understand your remorse, and simply accept you the way you are in hopes of seeing you behave better in the future following the lessons you learned with your tragic experience. If you don't have the courage to ask for forgiveness and show remorse because you are too proud, or because you are too weak, you have to adopt a philosophy of life that will give you the courage to act and behave as a person that wants to correct your past mistakes and work to completely reverse their attitude towards you. All sinners commit many sins and baptism cannot prevent them from making mistakes during their lives. This occurs because the human being is only a little bit human. The biggest part of his psyche belongs to a wild and selfish monster, which exhibits absurd behavior. All religions teach us that we must get rid of our dangerous ego and that we should love other humans and forgive their mistakes. The ego is the absurd king that wants to be on top and does not respect other humans. This is why the ego leads humans to craziness and despair. This is how he completely loses the human side of his conscience, becoming a mere wild animal that can only kill and destroy. All philosophies show us that we cannot be happy without peace; all works of poetry draw our absurdity with words, and all works of art reflect the irony of our lives with their sad scenes. If you have made a very big mistake, you are not alone. Rather you are the confirmation of the existence of too much absurdity in the human being and in the world he has created, according to his irrational and cruel characteristics. So, don't die but rather consider that true wisdom is to accept being humble and to accept asking for forgiveness. On the other hand, you don't need to take such dramatic action. There are many ways through which you can correct your mistake with time and show your enemies that you are not as cruel and inconsequential as they thought. Time will help you prove that you are not the same after what happened and that you will be only good from now on. You learned your lesson and you changed a lot because of it. So, work on trying to be only good from now on, and the future will undoubtedly be much better for you because a remorseful sinner is always accepted with honor and with open arms when he proves that he has really learned his lesson.
